Awful Proposal

I’m absolutely devastated by the way my fiancé proposed to me. There are many factors for why so I won’t even go there, I just want to know how I can get over it. I’m sooooo grateful for my man but having this ugly ring on my hand is a constant reminder. I’m usually fine until I’m unable to sleep at night and stay awake crying. I feel so shallow- other people actually have troubles worth crying over. I keep reasoning with myself and it’s still not working. What should I do?